so last Saturday we were going to go see Duplicity, and I was planning on telling her on our way there, but she ended up having to work that night. so an hour or two before she was going to leave for work I called her and told her that there was something I wanted to tell her but that I was scared she might tell someone, she assured me that she wouldn't tell anyone, I then blurted out that I was gay and I immediately started crying. she asked me how long I had known and through many tears and sobs I told her. she was very accepting, but the thing that annoyed me was that she thought that if I dated more girls then I could change, I told her that I know that I cannot change and that going on a mission and marrying a woman has not changed others and it will not change me, but I did not press my views on that subject because back in early January I still thought I could change so I will be very lucky if her views change anytime soon.
On sunday she came over to watch conference with my family and beforehand we went for a walk and talked about gay stuff. She asked me to repeat some of that things that I had told her the day before because she had not been able to understand everything I had said through all the crying.
A few days before after I was getting back from a trig test I was thinking about telling her, because a really cute guy had been sitting across from me (his presence was detrimental to my test) and I wanted someone to talk to about it. I did not end up telling her that day which was good because that day happened to be april 1st. a few days after I came out to her she told me that if I had not cried when I told her I was gay she would have thought that it was a late april fools joke.
I am much happier now that I can be completely open with her, it is so wonderful to have someone I can talk with about boys.
The Gift of Faith
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