Saturday, April 18, 2009

I finaly talked to my older brother about it

so a few days after I came out to my best friend (lets call her Amy), my older brother (lets call him Zane) who has been going to BYU and knows I'm gay but we have never talked about it called me. when I talked to Amy on general conference sunday she advised me to talk to him about me being gay.
I never told Zane that I was gay, this is how he found out. back when I was 15 I started looking at shirtless photo's of men which unfortunately led to gay porn. Never having done something bad on the computer before I did not think to erase the history. my dad found the websites.
So one night just after I had got in bed, my dad comes in and sits on the foot of my bed and says that he found some gay porn websites on the history of the computer, he then asked if it was possibly me and that I might be homosexual. as you can imagine I became super tense the room suddenly seemed to be 100 deg and I had an endless pit in my stomach. I admitted that I had visited the websites, he then told my that he and my mom loved me and would help me get through this ect and he left my room.
so a while later when my mom was on the main floor, I went down to the basement and used Zane's computer to visit a website that had pictures of shirtless of hot male singers actors and models. so not porn but a website no straight male would go to. any way Zane found the website told my dad, who then told Zane that I was gay and it must have been me. so thats how my older brother found out. and we had never talked about it ever. so when he called me a few days after this general conference sunday I was like, "you know I'm gay right?" he answered that he knew, and so I proceeded to tell him that I had told Amy and her reaction to the news. so it was nice to finally talk to him about it for the first time.
I am sad that we have to keep my little brother in the dark about my orientation but at least the rest of my family is loving and accepting.

45 comments:

  1. It sounds like your family is quite understanding and accepting. If that's the case, you've very lucky. I hope things continue to go well for you!

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  2. You are lucky! I've heard countless coming out stories that didn't go nearly as well. Count your blessings bro!

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  3. Hope my brother takes it well when I tell him. :)

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  4. Garet, I just found your blog and wish you the best on your life's journey. In your first post you mentioned not having sex with a man until you married him. I think you are wise in this for the same reason it is wise for heterosexuals. Your self control and self esteem will be greater, and you will know that you are in love with him for the right reasons. I look forward to following your story.

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  5. 與其爭取不可能得到的東西,不如善自珍惜運用自己所擁有的........................................

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  6. 偶爾上來逛逛,下次不知是否還有緣再進來,先祝您平安順利!!! ........................................

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  7. 當一個人內心能容納兩樣相互衝突的東西,這個人便開始變得有價值了。..................................................

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  8. 教育的目的,不在應該思考什麼,而是教吾人怎樣思考............................................................

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  9. 文章是心情的反應~~祝妳天天寫的都是讓人開心的好文章哦!!............................................................

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  10. 我愛那些使自己的德行成為自己的目標或命定的人................................................

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  11. 不會從失敗中找尋教訓的人,成功之路是遙遠的。.................................................

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  12. 旁觀自己的悲傷是解脫,主觀自己的悲傷是更加悲傷................................................

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  13. There is no such thing as a "Gay Mormon" you are either one or the other. Sorry but you can't be both.

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